"I will."

I feel a tiny bit of hope flourish, but I crush it. I can't hope, I can't because that will just make it worse when nothing comes of it. Nothing against Gwen's abilities, she's brilliant, but I'm too scared to get my hopes up. I know it's a lot of pressure on her and a huge disruption to her life but I don't want to die. Not like this.

"I haven't told Peter," I tell her. "If things get bad he'll try and stop me and... he won't be able to."

He won't be able to and I'm pretty sure that I would kill him.